YMI Doing This

My New Years Resolution was to become a better person but, it seems like thats the case for me every year. But what if who I am doesn’t need to change? What if all I have to do is embrace who I am? Maybe the person I really am is the better person. I have found that all the things that I am passionate about, that I love, have been irrelevant to me because no one else think it is important to them. I realized that maybe it’s not about what is important to everyone else, this year the focus is me and my son. I have wasted most of my life trying to please people, and I have failed almost every time I tryed.

Looking back, I was happiest when I didn’t care what people say or thought about me. I was doing better and I was proud of myself. But there was aways someone telling me that I wasn’t enough, that I wasn’t doing enough. And I messed up when I started listening to them. Why did I start listening in the first place? What made me care so much about what people thought? It’s a question I been asking myself for a long time now. SO this year, I will  become myself, not a better person, just me. I will to embrace the things I love and the things I am passionate about. I will speak my mind whenever I feel like it is neccessary. I will not feel bad for putting me before everyone else. I won’t care what people say or think about me. As long as I know that I am doing things that I need to do and things that I will be proud of, nobody else matters. Because at the end of the day, I am the only person that I see in the mirror, and God is the only one that I have to answer to. This year, I will be ME